some times i wonder

i don't mind living my life day by day, putting in the hours (ok, maybe it's not even much of a choice) just as practice for things to come.

i have come to the conclusion that even if what i do today is not important it could prepare me for something to come tomorrow that could change the world, or at least change something.

but still, i wonder. i wonder to myself every now and again what i am practicing for, when will i get my chance to make the change. perhaps i should be a bit more proactive on my way to the future, stretching out my hands to mold the days to come, but i have always been more typically the one to sit back and see how things unfold, placing my special crease on just the right part at just the right moment.

but still, i wonder.

.jrs.