oh garsh!

two-fer: 1) Pizza Shuttle deal in Manhattan,KS, where you can get two pizza's and two drinks for a good deal; see also three-fer, four-fer, etc. (2) Tuesday nights on KRock 101.5 in Manhattan, KS, during which a song is followed by another song from the same band. (3) The rare, but blessed occurance on this blog when I post more than once in a day.

living in manhattan for the past four years has graced me with this idea of the two-fer, so i thought i would shed this light upon you if you hadn't already know it.

i noticed today (not for the first time, but for again) that i just nod my head and agree a lot instead of telling people i don't understand or don't know what they're talking about.  i lie to them, baisically, to make it easier.  

why?

it's obviously not good for communication.  it makes me look stupid, too, well sometimes.  i just don't want to take the time to go over and over and over what is trying to be said, so i take the shortcut.

i need to change that.  i've needed to change that for a long time.

.jrs.

simply put

THANKS

For some reason or another, i've been kindof down the past day or so.  sometimes it's just from being quiet all the time.  i think the changes are starting to come to life for me.  a couple of times i've risen not really knowing where i was.  all this is expected to happen, so it's really nothing to worry about.

but to everyone supporting me through encouragement, finances, emails, everything, one huge thank you.  every single thing, big and small, day and night, even and especially the things i don't see, all these things have really helped keep me in good spirits.

today i slept/prayed/read my bible/slept some more/prayed/whatev until 11.  i felt a bit like a slug, but it was good for me.  i kept having this feeling like i needed to do it, even though i wanted to get up and be a part of life.

anways,  thanks so much.

.jrs.

two thoughts of the day, plus another

erste (first)

i saw a calender today in the shop for 2009.  i will be missing new years eve.  not a big deal.  but still something strange to think.  i'll also miss a friends wedding the day after.  best wishes kaleigh.

zweite (second)

i watched an episode of monk today about christmas.  i'll also miss christmas.  that one is a bit deeper cutting, but still i can handle.  it will be great honestly.  since this thought is pretty much the first one, let's open it up a little:

to be honest, i feel a bit timid about setting my roots here.  during the bible study we had tonight i realized that i could definitely live here forever, no problem.  sure i'd miss family and some american things, but i'd love it here.  then i realized i could love to live in Steinheim (where i was a couple years ago).  or to live in manhattan where i have a solid job already (actually two if i want, plus i could get any number more, and go to an easy school and have lots of close friends, blah blah).  or i could live in wichita where most my family is and opportunity abounds.  or africa; i have some friends there.  or i could go live anywhere else in the world (probably under the radar, but whatev).

so i think to myself, "why here."  well, right now, i believe it's the right place.  honestly the need for strong christians is greater than in america, i.e. there are fewer here.  the need for sure is equal everywhere, but fewer are here.

i was thinking about that though, as i pondered being ok with missing christmas.  simply put, i could live anywhere, so why here?

.jrs.

plus another

i always stay up to late.  emails, posts, reading, skype, whatev.  it's hard to just go to sleep.

.goodnight.